Jerry Dewitt says he is the most disliked person in DeRidder, Louisiana.
All he did was to renounce his Christian faith–he’d been pastor of the First Community Church there–and become an apostle for atheism. That’s all.
This story is some years old now, and I dug it out of my files. But here’s the gist of it…
The New Orleans newspaper carried the story. Jerry Dewitt was a Pentecostal preacher, he says. After struggling with his doubts for years, he went public with his unbelief and had now been unemployed for several months.
He described his journey to unfaith as “lonely and stressful.” For years, he said, he kept a phony public identity, preaching doctrines he no longer believed, practicing a faith that did not work for him.
The three doctrines he could not get past–
–One. He had trouble with hell. How could a loving God create such a place in His universe?
–Two. He doubted the authenticity of the gifts of the Spirit, which is a major emphasis in the Pentecostal churches.
–Three. He doubted the authority of the Scriptures.
The article says Dewitt is now out of the pulpit and public about his non-belief. He has begun to do a little speaking, telling his reverse-conversion story around the country before local humanist groups. More than that, he is the unpaid executive director of Recovering from Religion and works with the Clergy Project, a website that invites and privately counsels doubting pastors behind a password-protected firewall.
Promoting atheism is his new ministry. He calls himself a pastor still, in his role of counseling people struggling with faith issues.
These days, he said, he’s trying to “reinvent himself as a speaker on the atheist and humanists circuit, hoping to earn enough money to make a modest living.”
Any minister who reads this will have a host of reactions, and no doubt several questions. Here are my thoughts–
1) Sadness. I hate that this happens. Dewitt said there are other ex-ministers in his organization.
2) Understanding. Most of us have all wrestled with these same issues concerning heaven and hell, spiritual gifts, whether God answers prayer, His purpose in suffering, and the inspiration of Scriptures. None are simple; we are not asked to “live by faith” for no reason. It takes great faith to believe in and serve God.
3) Longing. That man needed a friend, someone to talk over these matters. Apparently, he kept it to himself until the dam burst and he could not keep it in any longer.
4) Greater sadness. Dewitt was about to lose his home because he can’t meet the mortgage payments, and he said his marriage was in trouble. Dewitt may have gone through the same struggles the rest of us did, but came out on the wrong side. That road is the way of despair, believe me.
5) No judgmentalism. I hope he is not “disliked” in DeRidder, a heavily evangelical section of southwest Louisiana. We Christians are to love everyone, even our enemies (see Luke 6:27ff).
6) Admiration. I appreciate his honesty in leaving the pulpit. At least Dewitt had the integrity to admit his nonbelief and to walk away from the pastorate.
I have several questions for anyone struggling with these issues and considering renouncing his faith in Christ.